This was 2006 I was studying Certificate 1V in Digital Media and I was at the heaviest I had ever been, I have a photo of myself from the Photography class I was in at the time otherwise there would be no record of this time in my life, I am still ashamed of how big I was, and I have never divulged my weight to anyone, although people are not blind they could probably work it out by looking at the photo, the doctor knows, and his scales in the doctors office are older than I am, and he will say they are 2 kilo's out (maybe just to make me feel a little better) although he says this every single time.
Day one of doing Atkins, I had people saying " it will make you very sick" " the diet is dangerous" " the author died from heart failure, what does that tell you?" everything was negative, so not off to a good start, my partner Andrew was and has always been supportive, but I was finding life very hard and very depressing, I was still cooking normal meals for the family but I couldn't have this and couldn't have that, when we went out for meals I would feel like a leper as there wasn't any meals I could order that were permitted on Atkins, and to be honest I didn't really understand the diet back then, I could have done research but I was busy doing my TAFE assignments, I also had discovered the Atkins range of bars, and these became my new addiction, each of the bars had only 2 grams of sugar but I was replacing meals with them and snacking with them actually I was out of control with the Atkins bars, I was already a Chocoholic and this was like replacing one drug with another drug. Initially I did lose weight on the Atkins diet, about 18 kilo (39.6 lbs) and it did take about 8 months, but before I actually arrived at my desired weight (still not there 9 years later but a lot closer) I had started to gain weight back, you know how they say "yo-yo dieting" (lose some, gain some back) my yo-yo is like a bowling ball, and I now know why people don't say " you have lost a lot of weight" because you you might just put it all back on the next time they see you. My Atkins phase wasn't a complete waste of time, I lost some weight and my diabetic control improved, my doctor was happy with the results but I was still taking a handful of tablets every day (7 to be exact) and I wasn't happy and found I couldn't sustain the Atkins diet and be happy, I was also working at the Ice Creamery a couple of nights a week, my ice cream addiction was on par with my chocolate addiction, which I know now is a "Sugar Addiction" and my bowling ball yo-yo was in play. One day while I was stocking up on my Atkins bars at Woollies, the checkout girl saw the amount of bars and just commented, "my mum has been doing the Dukan Diet and has lost a lot of weight" So I entered the Dukan stage, about 4 years had passed since I first started the Atkins and I had kept about 8 kilos off I was now finished my Diploma in Digital Media and had embarked on my Freelance Web Design Business, it kept me busy and my mind off food, but my sleeping patterns also changed for the worse, now instead of sitting up to the wee hours of the morning studying I was sitting up building websites. (sleep deprivation is bad for your health too). Next Post the Dukan Phase ....
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Andrew
22/10/2015 20:07:33
I remember all that, didn't realise it was such a battle emotionally, but I recall your breakfast which consisted of porridge with a little bit of water! I did say a dog wouldn't be able to get that down and you did cry, so you have come a long way.
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Wendy MeersI am a mother of two grown daughters, 3 beautiful grand-babies. Retired freelance Web Designer and a Sugar Free - Juicing Crusader& Keto supporter Archives
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